If you haven't changed your mind...

Sometimes I wonder...

If I had changed my mind then...

Would every thing be as painful as it is now?

Sometimes I wonder...

If I had not changed my mind, but continued down this path the way they did...

Would I feel happier?

Tonight, the stars shine bright once more. And my light is still on at such as time.
Everyone is in bed. And I am supposed to be too.
But as I think about it, I don't feel like sleeping any more.
I have lost many things, lost many experiences, lost many memories...
I am willing to give up my sleep, to look for them again.
Then again, this is never possible. For nothing is.

I ain't sure anymore. What's there for me to see already?
One thing's for sure though...

I want to be with everyone again.

I don't want to be lonely anymore. But as I reach out, I get hurt once more.
I cannot trust.

I have forgotten how to trust.

Each time, I give out my heart, what I get in return is usage.
Each time, I give out my feelings, what I get in return in sadness.

Who's willing to give me their hand and led me out of this valley?

Yet, even if I have to be here, deep down the Earth, I am glad.
I have found people whom I want to continue knowing.
I don't want this feeling to die off again.

Would you let me live, because I never lived?